Counting down to the end of the Promos. As usual I don't have any plans for the period after the holidays. Come to think of it I don't even have any plans for my birthday this year. I think I have chosen to forget about it. Argh study break. So ironic. Never mind. Remembering 2010, appreciated it so much so much. But it's okay this year, since everyone's having A's. Shall spend my birthday at Macs, studying. :/ How sad and pathetic my life this year is. But seeing the J2s next year will be worse.

Shall wake up early tmr and hitch a ride from my mom to school. She's going overseas tmr, am gonna miss her, despite being only a few days. :/I guess you really only feel the absence of the person when she/he is gone.

I am going to study hard hard tmr. I think more than half the class is going to pon school tmr since there is almost no point going on Weds. For me, I only have GP, Math, and Civics, which are all useless lessons. However, I'll never know as 21/11 is not the 21/11 before JCTs. Who knows? We might have perfect attendance tmr despite everyone saying they're not going tmr. Hmmm.

I really am fighting this battle alone this year. Don't want to feel so, but it is so darn obvious now. I need the emotional and psychological support. At least for JCTs, I had the J2s supporting me and encouraging me, but I know I can't be selfish and blame them. I know the stress they are going through and I certainty don't want to be adding to the high stress level. Like hello, I'm about to take an exam that I failed last year. Ohwell, I guess I've got to brace myself and step into the impending war ahead.

If you hear this on the radio

Then we've already said our last goodbye.

I won't be there when you get home.

By now there's someone else that hears you cry.

I didn't want to lose you,

Leave you with a broken heart.

But wherever we are, we're miles apart.

Celebrated my birthday with my family yesterday! It is 2 weeks before my actual birthday but it's okay, cause its the only week where my whole immediate family is free! I celebrated my birthday with my grandma <3 who is 69 years old this year! :O It's a privilege to celebrate my birthday together with her. :') She's done so much for me, and given me immense support throughout the 18 years of my life. She is really the most selfless woman I have ever met, constantly thinking for other people. The best thing is that she is a child of God, saved last year! Even baptised! How cool is that! :) I truly thank God for accepting her and bringing her into His kingdom.

Well, it's barely a week and a few days before Promos. I'll just have to try my hardest to finish studying everything + revision. :) I know that with the support everybody is giving me, I'll be able to do it. On the first day of study break, it's my birthday. -.- Haha I've come to accept it already, I mean, at least it's a holiday! I really want to thank God for bringing me through 18 years of my life, going through ups and downs with me and always 24/7 being there for me. :') As the 18th year of my life unfolds, I know it'll not be easy, but it'll definitely be fulfilling. :)

Got back my Math test today. Surprisingly, I passed with not bad marks! :) (Thank God for providing) Remembering the treat you wanted to give me haha. I would have been able to redeem it, but ohwell it's alright.

Helped out at Teenage Big Day Out for my mom yesterday. The event was super long, was there from 10am-10pm :O It was a really enriching experience overall as I managed to try out being a stage manager cue-ing groups to go stage when it was their turn to perform, and also watched the K-pop Dance Battle (which I sadly missed last year). Apparently there's a dispute between the Cosplayers and the K-pop dance teams, with the cosplayers flaming Teenage on their FB wall. And my mom is super stressed out, while her team is thinking of a solution to appease the cosplayers. I've been reading forums to find out exactly what is happening, and I've managed to know what exactly are the complaints about. Beneath the rants and vulgarities, I will definitely feedback to Teenage and hopefully next year no more such complaints will happen. But somehow I feel it is true that J-pop and K-pop competitions should not be on the same day. Conflicting interests. I hope this matter will resolve soon! :X

Today WF wanted to see Jiaen & I, which made us so fearful. I predict it is because we didn't attend her makeup lesson during the Sept Hols. Ohwell, I was having stomach flu so what was I supposed to do. Nevermind will explain to her tomorrow, hope everything will be fine. :X

Okay counting down, 15 days to promos. I am seriously very unprepared at the moment, especially for Lit & Physics. I really can't afford to screw up this time. I really can't.



Did Lit presentation meetup today. Am really struggling with Lit, especially Richard III. I hope I'll get a D at least for Promos, but I'm clueless as to how to do so as I don't even know how to study for Lit. :/ Haven't done any sort of annotation to my book as I'm not sure how. :(

Today I met G to study again. Quite unproductive though. :( Felt really tired and drained from the previous days of studying. This whole September holidays, I didn't even go out once to shop, etc. Only "fun" thing I did was watch Final Destination 5 with my parents, which was a horrible and disgusting movie that did not make any sense, which was a total waste of my time.

Tmr's Shinee Concert, and I've got tickets yet I can't go. >( Wanted to give someone the tickets but decided not to in the end. :( *Awkward*

Just found out that Grad Night is on 8th Dec, and guess what? I'm flying to Hongkong on the 9th, 1.30AM. -.- Which means I can't stay for Grad Night and have to leave before 11pm. :( No phototaking fun for me I guess. Disappointed but still glad my parents somehow didn't book the holiday on the 8th. Thank God. :) And ohno, I really don't have the mood to look for a dress to wear, and think of what hairstyle to use, blah blah. Ohwell. When the time comes, then I'll think about it.

Things to do today:



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